This is my life at a crossroads:

confused.
to say the least.
no one ever told us about this time in our lives. Things change when you turn 20, and they just get weirder when you get to 21.
At this point in my life, I feel a little... little to say the least.
I feel like I've made so many strides but I still feel stuck, like nothing has really been accomplished.
It's crazy for me not to go back to school. But to go back in January? Even more crazy.
I'm happy taking my time and taking things slowly. I just wish the rest of the world would slow down for a minute. It's like every monday suddenly becomes friday. Woah, woah, woah.
Woah.
Thanksgiving was a nice break though.
It was really good to see all of the fam and get to finally talk through everything with my mother.
...not that anything was decided or accomplished...
One other thing about this time in life is that it doesn't help that people keep dying left and right.
I feel like the beginning of all this craziness was when my aunt dana pasted away. Although it was expected, it's still such a shock.
And it hasn't end there.
But it's not just death that's happening, it's life too. It's learning to deal with people that have moved on
and being able to you, yourself move on.
I feel like at this point in life, is a state of change. A lot of my friends, and these are the smart ones, are on the verge of change. Big decisions need to be made. And you never read about this, or see a movie, or hear a song about this time. Maybe it's just the beginning.
So here's my blog, since no one else will write about what's going on now.
If you can't relate #sorryimnotsorry and get the fuck out.
To sum it all up, I'm thankful for my ma and pa, and step ma and pa, my brohans- how indivdually and uniquely annoying they each are, and my pain the ass sister that I love. My cutie pa-too-tie dogs. The good food I've always had the pleasure of enjoying. The warm houses I've always resided in and the education I have received. I've been given a lot off opportunity and I plan on making something out of that. It just may take longer than expected. The pay off however, will be better than I can even anticipate.