Mardi Poo

So this is the first year in four years that I will not be in Burlington for Mardi Gras OR St. Patrick's Day. Honestly, it's probably a good thing. The drinking levels will be dangerously high, obviously, and the cops on the prowl.
The past couple of years Mardi Gras has been a shit show, to say the least. Although I would love to be there sober and document the night sufficiently and remember all the stupid things my friends do, I can not make it.

I'd like to take a moment and remember my Mardi Gras and St. Patrick's Day of the past:


Welp, last year for Mardi Gras I was working in cupcake land so we only have one pic:

However, Last years St. Patty's Day was well documented:

Simply angry.

3 amigos

The Babies.

Just some of my family.

Mardi Gras Sophmore year was a litttlee cray cray:

We caused some trouble.

 In awe of the parade +Austin Garrett 

O yes. WE DID SOME JAMMING OUT

And of course then there was 2011 St. Patty's Day. 

Basically we got to KBlum and Princess Jessica's andddd got to drunk to leave:

 

I love her. 

My first Mardi Gras experience was just that, an experience.  

 

 

Since freshman year baby. 

And finally, 2010 St Patty's was at Colchester, of course. It was a night of brown, for beer, and green.

 The Irish princess. 

Babies.

LIVE FREE OR DIE

I hope this gets whoever you are excited about the upcoming holidays and makes you dwell on the festivities of the past. I love of these moments and the people I've gotten to share these days with. 

#groundedbyglitter

Fucking Crazy

The Oscars Sunday night were, quite simply, epic.
Argo, of course, took best picture. Anne fucking Hathaway won best supporting actress. There was a tie for something minor? Which hasn't happened since like the 60s.
And of course, I fucking love that Jennifer Lawrence won best actress. Who the fuck cares what else happened, over all she was the oscar winner.

Jennifer Lawerence is the definition of perfection. The backwards necklace! So elegant.

Lol. Fuck you anne. 

And her interview after winning was priceless.

Hollywoods new it girl's not going anywhere. 

So look out bitches, we have a winner. 

Besides the fact that I'm in love with Jennifer Lawrence, in general, I love that Silver Linings Playbook is getting the respect it deserves. 

It's about fucking time someone made a movie about real, crazy, mental, people. 

Having something wrong with you, mentally, should not have a stigma attached to it. It's out dated. Finding out that you have a mental disorder is becoming more and more brought to the forefront. Less people are finding what's wrong with them and it's awesome. 

Silver Linings Playbook really is doing a lot for people who are... well.. crazy. Nah jk. You know what I meaaannn.

I'm diagnosed bi-polar by some specialist- not all of them. There's a spectrum of bi-polar and I fit somewhere in there. Along with that diagnostic comes all my craziness. I was only told about three years ago that my brains different but I've never been normal. 

I have been on a terribly beautiful journey, these last couple of years, to discover myself. I've also been plauged by a label. The term bi-polar scares because of every rumor I have ever heard about the it.

Only through my personal path, have I discovered what the spectrum of bi-polar is and how I fit into that. 

If you get the chance to get to know me, well, you're lucky. Lucky, first off, that I've let you into my world. The moment you are welcomed into my inner circle it's hard to escape. I am a person who clings to other people to learn about myself. It is not easy for me to let people in after all that I've been through and I don't like people who break their way through the surface only to leave. 

I'm not writing a sob story but I'm trying to explain to you my kind of crazy. Everyone has their own journey and I'm in the middle of mine. I don't have time for people who are scared of "crazy". I accept myself and all that I've had to overcome. I expect a lot from other people. I like me and I like to surround myself with people that like me too, even if it's just a few. I can be extremely difficult because I'm extremely honest. I tell people what to do but I listen to others.

I don't think less of myself because there is something "wrong" with me mentally. 

I do think less of people who over look something like that. 

I have an amazing group of people who have helped get to where I am. Most of them are super fucked up in one way or another and I love that about them because they love me for who I am. 

Sorry that I've gone on about I, I, I, getting a little carried away.

I've just been talking it over with my dear friend @alishdurgin and when your crazy or weird, diagnosed or not, relationships can be difficult. Sometimes I do feel undateable or that I'll be rejected if I am upfront with everything about me. Which makes me just closed off. "I think I will only be happy if I'm with someone who is also a bit mentally unstable like me." Completely agree Durgin. 

That's why this movie is so great. One day, I will find someone who finds my kind of crazy perfect. Until then I'll just keep giving boys cupcakes.

All of the best people I know are weird and crazy. 

Boobs

Sometimes your suppose to be studying but instead you're just finding perfect fuck yab blog photos.



And some times you just have to flash your boobs with your middle finger up.

So here is my procrastination in photos;

ok. Time to hit the books. 

Cheers 

So You Think You Can Dance?

Facebook is driving me insane. My last post was about this fucking social network and it will not continue. It ends here. I'm going to delete my Facebook. Sikeeee jus playin, ya'll know I couldn't do that.
At the same time it's like, why do I even have a Facebook anymore?!?!
I hate everyone on Facebook. 




I don't want to see anyone from high school. I'm slowly deleting all of you. Hopefully I don't see any of you awkwardly around Philly, since half of my high school never left the state...

I hate everyone in Burlington. Jk, obviously. But it's like I don't even wanna see all the social happenings since I'm not apart of them. I just end up liking every single picture anyway. Then I just look like the weird0 like, SHE DOESN'T EVEN GO HERE ANYMORE.

Everyone else I'm friends with from various activities. Like we went to camp together or... no that's mostly it. 

I loved everyone I went to camp with (...for the most part) but now I haven't been involved in your life in years and I just see everything through this page and I'M JUST GETTING TIRED OF IT. 

Mostly I use Facebook these days to stalk people (well what else is new there) and envy people's lives... 

Stalking you on internet.

I use to be so active via the internet! Every time I logged into my Facebook a year ago I had around 10 notifications, now I have like 1. This is the lamest blog post that I've ever done. I've now gone on about Facebook for a whole post. BUT IT JUST IRKS ME. 

irks me.

I guess it should make me feel better that I don't rely on social media as much as I use to. Last year I was so much more active online... because I constantly stoned not leaving my apartment or hungover tagging pics from the night before. Now, I'm awake during the day and actually doing things, so...

Twitter's my real jam. Even if I tried, I can't really stalk people on twitter and it just makes me laugh all the time.

So basically facebook...

The Delete Button.

Have you ever gone on facebook and been like"Bitch REALLY?!?!"


We're not friends anymore? You deleted me. Really? Really. Ok.
Wait TELL ME WHYY?


5 Reasons you possibly got deleted on facebook:

1. you're an ex.
an ex lover, boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend, whatever
as soon as your an ex in someones life, they're most likely going to delete you. Your an ex. duh.

2. you're not actually friends.
Here's a scenario of this case:
We met freshman year of college and you didn't even go to my school, you were visiting a friend and we had a drunk conversation and became best friends for a drunken moment.
How did I even notice you deleted me?
Or
We went to highschool together I didn't ever really like you, or talk to you. obviously you didn't like me. because you just deleted me. you stupid bitch.

3. you were a bitch.
we are friends but you just did something horrible to me and I never want to see your face again.

4. You post the most annoying shit.
You'd have to be super obnoxious for this to happen but it happens. Especially if your posting about political or religious views. Your bound to piss a few people off.

5. They like you too much

This is kind of like being an ex, or just being a stalker. It goes something like this "I don't really know you and I stalk you al the time, or ever worse, I get drunk and facebook you. I'm just going to delete you now so this doesn't happen again."

So after your all like bitch you deleted me and you rack your brain for why they did it, you start to think well, ya i've deleted people... for each one of the reasons listed above.
 But like, sometimes your being ridiculous (recognize that. move forward.) And sometimes it's so totally called for.

When it's totally appropriate to delete people:

We broke up. 
I don't like you at all right now. I'm probably going to try to add you in a month when you have a new girlfriend and I want to stalk you, but for now your deleted.

I don't talk to you or see you and I never will again. 
Just do it already, who the fuck cares about the number of friends you have. Get this person the fuck out of your feed, it's crowded enough as it is.

I hated you in high school, we're not in high school anymore. 
See you never. Or maybe just at our local CVS and I'll have to act like I'm on my phone.






When it's absurd to delete someone:

Ok, We have pictures of multiple social events and we've even commented on them. Ya I'm calling the bitch card, your a bitch. I didn't even write a slam blog post about you and you deleted me. COOL.

Your mad at your best friend.
Stirring the pot, is what this is called lil miss. Yes, I've done this. It's like unnecessary and unless your trying to get in a fight just stop it.

If they're an ex you have no problems with. Like ya, we all delete our ex's of some kind, but if they didn't really do anything wrong and you don't really have a problem with them, there's no reason to delete them. That's just absurd and will leave them wondering wtf.


So next time you think about just casually deleting someone on facebook, think about if it's really appropriate If it's not either you'll get a big fuck you, or just turn around and be like

10 Reasons It's Ok I Broke My iPhone

The main draw back of having a pretty iPhone case is that it most likely does absolutely nothing to protect your precious piece of technology.
Today my case just let my phone crack. Like as much as possible.

I feel like this is mostly my fault. Aside from not having a otter box, which I know I should have, I also jinxed myself. In my Wednesday night class, I was sitting next to some chatty sorority girl and I saw her phone was cracked. I was like ha ha amateur.  
Well clearly heres my karma for judging. CAUSE NOW MY PHONE IS DESTROYED. UGH 
As soon as this happened I was like ok deep breathe. No tears. Lets think about this... 

10 REASONS IT IS OK I BROKE MY IPHONE: 

1 I have an iPhone. 
Gone are the day of not being constantly linked in. I can do anything I want to techy-wise. This whole cracked situation may not be ideal... but it's still in working condition so.  

2 I am a healthy young women.
 I have yet to even catch the flu this year. KNOCK ON WOOD 
I am a fully functional young human being and am entirely in good health. This is something that I feel I take for granted. I'm just really happy I feel good. 

lovelovelove

3 I am loved by my amazing friends and family. 
Although I may hate my phone right now, and I sometimes hate everything, I still have an extremely impressive support system and I will get through anything with them Even if it calming myself down from a broken phone.



4 I have a warm bed and am well fed.

5 I am almost a whole year sober. 
If I can conquer a drinking problem I think I can deal with a broken phone. 

6 I am a student of higher education Every time I see my therapist he asks me "so are you smart?" Why yes sir I am. After not being in school for a while I do appreciate it a whole lot more and feel extremely lucky to be back in college. 

7 I am unemployed and still have a roof over my head.
Living at home sucks but then it's also great. No rent no problems.

8 I have a really cool phone case.
Although I'm really pissed about what just happened I still think my case is really cool. 

9 I broke my own phone. 
I didn't break someone else's, which I would have felt really bad about and someone else didn't break mine which would have just pissed me off more.  

10 I appreciate the good things and try my best to be optimistic.
If you follow me on twitter you might think I'm not exactly not a cup half full person, but in actuality I really am. :)

and I stay #groundedbyglitter