And truly, how could we ring in a new year without a reflection?
So, in a nut shell- 2015 was probably the worst year of my life.
In January I was in mourning from a relationship that ended at the tail end of 2014 and on that note I had a series of pseudo-relationships that were all incredibly… bizarre… Just nothing good with men came from 2015, at all. Period. And I was finally just like... a lot of this could be us but you playin.
I don't fuck with you. Any of you. You little dumbass bitches. I got a million trillion other things I'd rather do. Look-
I lost my dog, Jasper, in early spring. I said goodbye, abruptly, to my old roommate and one of my oldest and best friends, Samantha, mid summer. And finally, had to put my old lady, Bevin, to rest in early fall.
Dear God, it is amazing I am not in a mental hospital with all the shit that has happened this year.
But sometimes I really did feel like I couldn't feel my face.
Of course there were upsides… A key point was that Sophia Paige Sullivan was brought into this world by Samantha Morgan. Definitely the highlight and shining beam of 2015.
But I also,
got to escape to New York City, more times than I can count, hey what's up hello? I had a plethora of brunches with my mother and without, Ran my first 5k, Celebrated 3 years sober on the day, walked for peace with my family, became the worlds greatest nanny (to a child that I love), graduated city year Philadelphia in may, made a number of friends along the way, reconnected with friends of old, became ronda rousey- which was quite bold, started a new job and got a new place, worked really hard on my program and found grace. So much happened, it’s hard to recount- thank you yabbers for making me take count.
And I didn't have to say to my friends, "Where are you now?" Because they were there the whole time.
Baby girls you're so damn fine though
players gonna play, play, play
just shake it off.
I know my lifestyle is driving you crazy.
All we need is somebody to lean on
No place I'd rather be.
I really, really like you.
All of you.
#Blessed.
I don't like you- I love you.
Basically my life was changed, and honestly it was for the better.
It’s amazing what a reflection can do...People have said to me so many times, “you’re going to be strong when all of this is over.” And I have wanted to say, “shut up and just make it all over.”
At least, I'm being honest.
But now as I sit poolside in Florida, reflecting on my life during 2015, I'm not thinking, “eh it wasn’t that bad,” I’m thinking, “I made it through it and now it’s over.”
I have never been more happy to ring in a new year, that is most definitely true.
I know, I know, all you read this blog for is my relationship shit. You want to hear me blast the men that are in my life.
This is not super relevant, but at the same time it is BECAUSE I WILL TIE IT ALL TOGETHER,
2015 was just like a flop.
There were a number of time people came into my life and I thought something was going to happen,and then
flop.
It just wasn’t exciting. IS IT TO LATE NOW TO SAY IM SORRY YABBERS? but really- I can just sum it all up with the word,
Flop.
And for 2016, I’m of course looking for the word, pop.
but like male bad bitches- means... bad. bitches. doesn't translate well.
"What do you mean? Yab?" oh Sorry. Please, please don't make the hotline bling. BYE.
Hope I didn't just sew myself Stitches, am I right Shawn Mendes?
But more so I’m looking at the word,
MOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPP
Like at this point, IDGAF (2011 reference). Too many people tryna drain me of my energy.... You're not getting the code to this Wifi.
I’m having fun alone on my adventures.
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| Sam's got the idea |
I don’t know the future but I know I will get through whatever comes my way.
Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen... take me to church
And onwards and upwards we go, to 2016.
Buh-Bye, 2015.
Now get out there, shut up, and dance. Whip, nae nae, whip, whip, nae nae
Ps- did you catch Dj Yab's 2k15 music references
lol
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