Savor Life.

It's hard leaving things behind. I've talked about this before, many times, but it really is hard. What's even harder then leaving things behind is watching what happens to them after you are gone and no longer apart of them.

Saying good bye and removing myself from Burlington was extremely difficult. I feel very happy with the decision I made to come home for good but getting to see what happens to #BTV while I'm not there is just fucking painful.

Seeing people who were very awkward and shy, while I was/am loud and obnoxious, become huge personalities is weird. Seeing other people that I don't know enter my, old, world and become best friends with my friends is surreal. Having my friends meet my other friends and become better friends then I was with either of them is bizarre.
The whole situation makes me really hate social media.

Seeing big events (such as the Otis Mountain Music festival-which happened this weekend) where I know I would have been makes me have serious FOMO.

I try to be happy and not come up with resentments but I do have a sour taste in my mouth about certain people these days and the way they present themselves. And guess what ? I'm allowed to have my fucking opinion.

I want to say this though: Savor life. Sometimes you are holding you're breathe waiting for things to begin and that is literally the biggest waste of time. Life ends faster then the years it takes to make it what it was. Don't waste your life waiting for something to start. If you are waiting for something, anything, savor that waiting period because you are still gaining experience. People spend too much time waiting for a particular moment, including myself. Take the time to enjoy where you are at. Even if it is horrible.  You are alive and so are the people around you, if not tomorrow definitely today.

That might not seem related to what I was talking about but I think it is, and I was just thinking about it today and felt it need to be said.

But I am really happy with the way my life is going IRL and I can't continue to worry about what people put on the internet.

I will say this. I made an impression on a lot of people in Burlington, VT. I did things. I went places. And I'm going to move mountains.

I ain't cocky I'm just stating the obvious.
But that is only the first place I will have to move on from. I'm only 2-23. IAMNOW23.
I plan on taking over and conquering several cities, and maybe even countries in this life of mine.


I think I'm on the right road to doing just that.

The worst is behind me.





Although #BTV was a defining city in my life, up to this point, it wasn't the most positive place for me. I have high hopes that I will find another new city and make it totally mine. It'll be even better then before.

Say Good Bye and Look Ahead.